I.
HATE.
RUNNING.
.period-dot-the-end.
seriously, me and running have never gotten along.
I once ran a 9 minute mile in high school for cheerleading tryouts, but it never happened again. Haha. I'm just horrible at it. My form is all wrong and I can barely get through one lap without huffing and puffing. And the shittiest part about running is that, I know the only way I can improve at it is to just keep running.
UGH..
anyways enough crying Chryssi and get to the story.
yesterday's w.o.d.
(workout of the day)
back squats
followed by:
2 mile run for time
(25 min limit)
F * * K
okay, okay, maybe 2 miles isn't that bad to you, and maybe when you read that you were all, "oh 25 minutes to finish, sweet that's more than enough!" But when I saw that wod, my first instinct was to fake sick and go home! I even tried to convince the trainer that I had already finished with the previous class and he just didn't notice I was there. He didn't buy it. Lame. So I sucked it up, put on my big girl panties and just did the damn thing.
Going into it I had 3 main goals.
*Finish
*Finish without falling
*Finish without stopping to walk
Notice I wasn't too concerned about time. I chose to ignore the clock.
25minutes for me was just
highly unlikely. I accepted it and moved on.
For the most part, the run started out the same in my head.
100m-
'alright i got this'
200m-
'..whew..control your breathing chryssi...you're a machine..'
400m-'...nice, 1 lap down 7 more to go..no biggie..'
401m-
'...wtf...did i just get lapped already?!...'
600m-'...is this seriously only my 2nd lap....no...maybe it's my 3rd....wait..no it's my 2nd..damn..'
Now around 800m is where i really start to hate my life.
I can't breath, I'm sweating like crazy, and if one more person passes me and says, "
good job chryssi, keep it up" I swear I'll trip them. (if I can even catch up to them) And all this crap is going through my head,
'I hate running', 'I can't do this 6 more times', 'There's no way I'm going to finish on time'
etc.
etc.
But something happened after that 2nd lap, I chose to stop being so damn negative.
My new mantra going through my head was:
I just want to finish.
I just want to finish.
and lo and behold, I finished.....within the time limit!
It was my first time running that distance without stopping, and as of now that's my best time!
So...yay Chryssi you can run, who the heck cares?!
hahaha
I guess what I'm getting at is, yesterday I learned a huge thing about myself.
My mind is the only thing holding myself back.
I walked into that wod yesterday already defeated. In my mind I had already decided, that I hated running, I sucked at it, and there was no way I could do it in the allotted time.
It was only until I let go of those thoughts, I could actually achieve my goal and then some!!
It's not because I finally got my form right or my stamina is better...these are things that I still need to improve on. The only thing that changed was my attitude.
Anyways, Sorry I went all "the secret" on you guys!
haha
but, I hope y'all enjoyed!
See ya tomorrow
-Chryssi